![]() Everyone was wondering if I would be okay or I would be able to find a new job in this difficult time especially as I work abroad, how is it like with my Visa and my Residence Permit? But all I said was: I do not afraid of the future as what I wanted at the time only my happiness and myself back □Īnd only three weeks after hiatus (I used this time to take care of myself, meeting old friends, travelling, reading, and spend my weekend with my beloved one) I found a new job, even with better position and better paycheck! I also took a break from my previous job and sent my resignation even before I found a new job. ![]() That feeling and sensation I get from it has always been fascinating.ĭear Hanif thank You for writting down your feeling and experience here. It amazed me every time I discovered new information that I never thought of before. What these past few months has taught me is that reading helps me reduce stress. I use my resting time exploring things I seldom spent time doing: reading practical books and taking online courses. Now, I think I am already feeling better. There's no use worrying or stressing about something that has already happened or come to pass. I guess that is why I never felt like telling anyone about it. As many of you know, dealing with mental disorder is still taboo in our society and not everyone can actually empathize with you. I was more worried about the judgement I would receive rather than finding a solution that could benefit both parties. To be really honest, I really like to overthink. I still wonder even until now, what would have happened if I had told her the truth. I did not tell her I was having a hard time, but instead I told her that my priorities had changed. With all the calculation I had, I spoke to my line manager and ask for a resignation. “the only person who knows you better than all is yourself” “you are the only one who knows what is best for you” I stumbled upon some quotes saying that no one fully knows oneself except him/herself. I was not feeling comfortable telling what I was going through with anyone, so I took time reflecting what had happened to me in recent times. I even pulled myself from social life which makes my family wondered what was happening to me.Īt that time, I had no one to talk to. ![]() I started to lock myself in my room, spent the entire day in the bedroom. From this moment, I was fully aware that I was not okay. I am an introvert, but sometimes I also crave for emotional affection that can only be delivered through offline settings. Fully operating 24/7 at home with less human interaction has changed my whole routine. I must admit that this pandemic has taken a great toll on me. However, at that time, I knew that my physical being had already recovered, but my mental state was not. I was given time to recover fully before I went back to work. I was also grateful that my work place was very supportive and accommodating. I seriously thought that I would not make it, but all thanks to Allah, immense support from family and beloved one, as well as the great health care facility I was provided with. ![]() I had trouble in breathing and also had a terrible cough. In early May, I was showing a serious Covid symptoms. ![]() In the beginning of 2021, I went back and forth to hospital due to DBD, typhus, and Covid. I was worried if I would still be able to pay bills, if I could get another job soon after I am done taking my rest, or if I would be able to get the previous working rhythm and pace back.Īll these scenarios played over and over in my head, and without I realized, it had already affected my well-being. I was in constant dilemma for over a year since the beginning of the pandemic. Some also said that no matter how stressful or how sick one is, he/she should still continue to work as there are many people who would fight for the job position that she/he currently has.īelieve me when I say that it was never an easy decision to take a break from work. Some said that one should be grateful if one still has a job and could feed their family. ![]()
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